I’m taking a break from all the ketamine speak to write about something I saw this week, which I feel is relevant and interesting to think about. I was sitting at a traffic light earlier in the week and I observed a person riding a hybrid electric bike across a cross walk. As he was going by, a gust of wind picked up and carried a reusable bag out of a cart he had affixed to the back of the bike. The bag landed on the street, in the crosswalk. I noticed a woman in a car across from me noticing as well. She appeared to be debating (mentally) what, if anything, to do about this situation.
Intuitively, it didn’t feel like my “work” to “do” anything in this situation, other than observe. As I drove on, I started to think about how different people’s perceptions can be. One person might see that and think something like, “What a terrible person! He just littered a reusable bag!” Another person might see that and think, “Oh no! He’s lost his reusable bag! Someone should help him!” Another person still, might say to themselves, “Wow, that guy has absolutely no clue what he’s lost!” And someone else might think, “That guy is mindless!” Another could say, “Wow, that’s the perfect image of what it feels like to let something go and never look back!”
I was pondering the last thought myself. How freeing to ride a bike with the wind blowing through body’s hair! How freeing to be oblivious enough that I don’t notice what’s going on behind me! Perhaps it’s not as important (the bag). Perhaps it is important and only in hindsight will it be revealed what’s been lost. Perhaps backtracking is necessary and what’s missing will be found through retracing the route.
These thoughts and this image brought up a disagreement I had with a family member even earlier in the week. My family member and I don’t agree about our perceptions of some events that occurred in the distant past. At the moment, it’s creating some friction in the relationship, which stems from lack of trust. It’s going to be a process, each of us are undertaking both individually and collectively. As we peel the layers back, more and more is unveiled. The more that’s unveiled, for me, the more I’m feeling secure about what I can and cannot control and what is “mine” to accept, versus what is theirs to work through. I feel very fortunate for the gift/skill of Reiki when things like this come up. Even though I cannot change the past, I can send Reiki through space/time and give Light (to the situation) which could lead to understanding to/about the situation.
What the guy on the bike showed me is that I cannot control what goes on behind me (in the past). I’m looking forward and propelling on a path. People may not understand me or where I’m going, or even where I’ve been. But honestly, that doesn’t doesn’t matter. (Judgments aren’t real.) What matters is that I keep my eyes on the road ahead. I lovingly release anything not serving me into the wind (behind me). If I need to backtrack at some point, I do. Perhaps most importantly, I keep living in the moment, giving what I have to give, and BE-ing the best person I can be.
Have a wonder-filled Thursday!
Lori
*Photo credit- Sara KurfeB, Unsplash
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